“The story was no way near over…”
To catch you up, two weeks ago, I wrote about the wild celebration turned huge disappointment in our lives – wanting to have kids for over ten years, being licensed foster parents for over two years and receiving no calls, then the call came, and we thought we were bringing home the son (7-day-old Benjamin) we had dreamed of for so long. Then came another call, and we had to return him, and our hearts were crushed.
In last week’s post, while still healing from the disappointment, I wrote this in my prayer at the very end:
Lord, Thank You for showing me that even in the midst of that first Good Friday, the story was no way near over, and the best was yet to come. Amen.
I hit “publish” on that post, grabbed a snack and headed off to Walmart. Like I have done for the past 23 years of marriage, I filled the cart with goodies that we like, with no need to think about what anyone else likes.
I put our cart-full of stuff on the belt in the checkout line.
Then the call came.
It was a different DCFS caseworker, wondering if we would be up for taking in a one-year old boy. We weren’t sure if our hearts were ready for another potential disappointment yet, but we said yes anyway.
And I’m so glad we did, even if our hearts were a lot more guarded. He arrived on Friday, and on Tuesday we learned that it looks like we’ll be caring for him for possibly the next nine months.
Here’s what I’ve learned so far:
- Disappointments will come, but the story is never over, and as followers of Jesus, we know He’s with us in the valleys, and the best is always yet to come.
- I’ve always believed that being a parent has to be the hardest job in the world. Now I’m convinced. 🙂 But my prayer has also been, “Lord, teach me NEW things that cause me to know Your heart more and depend upon You more.” I never want to let fear keep me from diving in and learning.
- Developing friendships and living in community with the Body of Christ is oh so very important. I have been overwhelmed by the support of my friends in these past few weeks, and I know I will be depending on their wisdom in weeks to come.
- Before the events of these past two weeks happened, I started what was to be a “series” of blog posts about the perfectionism wheel. My guess is a whole lot of parents (moms especially) stress out about being so perfect, and raising the perfect kids. Just WHY do we do that to ourselves? I feel a post coming about this in the near future to add to that series. 😉
- And last (for now, cuz the little guy is about to wake up), I know I’m going to need some time to adjust to this new life and this new schedule, so I’m pretty sure my blog posts won’t be weekly for a while, and when I do write, it’ll probably be a whole lot shorter and to-the-point. And that’s probably a really good thing. 🙂
Thank you Lord, for Your love that surrounds us in our times of disappointment, and celebrates with us in our times of joy. Thank You for the Body of Christ who shows us Your love in practical ways, and reminds us to keep our eyes fixed on You. Amen.
I know you’ll ask…we of course call him by his given name, but we also call him by his nickname, “Diego.” 🙂